I hate having no control in my life. Like seriously, I’m so used to not being able to fully control my career goals or my love life, but the one thing I thought I had under control was my degree, and this term my grades haven’t been what I need them to be. I’ve never been in an academic situation where my best isn’t good enough, and it’s so frustrating that I’m feeling this in my final year.
I don’t know, I just feel like sometimes I put s o much pressure on myself to have have the best marks/keep a guy/get that foot on the career ladder and the worst part is a failure in my eyes is not the same as a failure in other people’s eyes. People think I’m just being silly, but I really wish I could be lax. I just can’t.